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Same date as previous because I wrote the last one at about 2:30am. I drove alot today, essentially acting as my mom's chauffeur. I'm trying to get my license at the moment, so I need as much driving practice as possible. I am way too old to be without a license. I feel that this deficiency negatively affects not only my state of mind but also my entire ability to form deeper relationships with new people. I don't feel good both inviting people out and accepting invitations to hang out because of transportation. To be clear, this has nothing to do with me not enjoying public transportation, or even there being a lack of it. In fact, the public transporation is outstanding where I live and sitting on the bus gives me time to relax and decompress. People look down on you when you take the bus. Perhaps I place too much purchase into the opinions of others, but at the end of the day, no matter how noble it seems to pretend as if you were above it all, everyone is always at the mercy of others. Your entire life trajectory revolves around the way others perceive you.

All this intellectualizing aside, I also genuienly do enjoy the act of driving. There's this technical aspect to it that I find enjoyable, and there's a sense of freedom attached to it as well. The hardest part about driving is parking. Getting that angle just right can be challenging. And you feel as if everyone is watching you to see how good you are at parking. I also think cars are cool and would love to get my own and customize it. I will continue to drive as much as I possibly can and take the road test soon.